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Saturday, October 07, 2006
I woke up to find the atmosphere gloomy today.
again, the air is still hazy.
i couldnt even see the leaves of a tree clearly.
the condo nearby seems shrounded in a mist.
the condo of the dust.

im studying. slogging my heart out.
but i just dun seem to have that confidence in myself.
probably because i have failed my expectations so many times.
so much for being a dark horse as what mrs koh commented on me.
i dun wana be a black horse.
i wana be a white one.
becos lack beauty sounds gayish.
lolx.
ok im just being lame.
time is running out.
i seriously duno what i can do.
i know what i want.
but i duno how to go about doing some things too.
oh forget it.
its hard.
my life.
its sux big time right now.
all aspects of it.
i feel as though im such a failure.
i can do nothin.
taking a look at my arms i found out tha i;ve become skinnier everyday.
looking at my com and not knowing what to do.
the feeling is just bad.
real bad.
im feeling nauseous at the moment.
nauseous about myself.
about my life.
haha.


LOLed@ 4:41 pm